Yes, I’m an idiot.
I’m an idiot for not telling you I love you.
I’m an idiot for not spending my every waking moment telling you how amazing you are.
I’m an idiot for not admitting I care.
I’m an idiot for not fighting for you to stay.
I’m an idiot for letting you leave when I knew how much it’d destroy me.
I’m an idiot for letting you leave knowing all you wanted was for me to ask you not to.
I’m an idiot for letting my pride get in the way.
I’m an idiot for many reasons,
But most of all I’m an idiot for crying and crying and crying over a person who left without any regret or remorse for the person they left behind and for wanting to die every second because I felt as if life wasn’t worth living without you.
But, you’re also an idiot, for leeaving me, the one person who made it CLEAR I loved you and would do anything for you and the one person who would’ve spent every moment with you if it made you happy.
I was the one person who would’ve spent the rest of my life with you and never regretted it, I was the one person who lost ALL my family and friends for you, when you left I had nothing, at all and I had to be by myself a lot, all the time.
The most idiotic thing about me: I still love you. So much.
